Well, hello 2021, I had no idea you were going to be such a bitch.
It’s not even the second week of the year and I’ve had enough for now…enough sudden shocking events, painful realizations and deep disappointments. Yes, yes…I’m being overly dramatic, there have been some high points as well, and in reality, the lowest of the lows has given me a priceless gift, a gift wrapped in shit as one of my friends likes to refer to offerings such as this.
By Friday I was reeling. The same slap in the face kept coming, from different directions. With only one thing in common (me) I knew where to look more deeply. As I settled in to the morning breathing routine, I heard it…
“You keep hurting yourself and blaming others.”
Well, damn. I had a pretty good idea, but it’s so much more convenient to be mad at everybody else.
“You make others a high priority and expect that they will make you a high priority in return. When that doesn’t happen, you get hurt.”
Well, there it is.
Sure, from this perspective I can see what a bad idea that is and how it is a set-up for disaster, but I have never seen this pattern so clearly before. I get it now, I must make myself Priority One.
It’s easy to say, and we hear it again and again, “Fix your own oxygen mask first before you help another.” Yeah, yeah, I do that, but wait…
On closer observation, I almost NEVER do that. Then I get my undies in a bunch when what is important to me gets buried in someone else’s to-do stack.
So happy I was working on (with) this horse and can align the lessons in and out of the studio. I believe this time I’ve gotten the message…
I am Priority One.
I’m sorry I called you a bitch, 2021, let’s be friends.
**Addendum…less than 24 hours after this post, I received the following message in an e-mail from Suzanne Giesemann who channels Sanaya…it was just too synchronistic not to share!
Your needs may not always coincide with another’s. What is important to you is not always what is important to others. This can cause frustration. It may produce thoughts within you that the other does not care. Perhaps in different circumstances they care very much, but you have had many times when people do not know what is going on inside of you or in your earthly life. Could it be that way with the other who does not respond the way you would like? There is always another approach, another angle to move forward, and it may not involve that other. In fact, the lack of response may be just the opening you need that leads to a better way. Trust the Web, the Sea of Love that connects you all. Something better is brewing. Life … it is all about growing and loving and experiencing.
You are so very loved.