When blogging was first suggested to me, it was dismissed as just another item on a too long to-do list, but the fact that mandalas always come with a story and illustrate lots of tales and truths as they are created, made the idea irresistible, I and started to blog in 2007. Unfamiliarity with the process and impatience (I kept losing my way to where the blog was located on the computer) along with my Mom dying and lots of other difficulties, brought a swift end to my writing career. I kept painting, but ceased blogging.
In 2013 I started again, with WordPress this time, and bookmarked the location so I could find it when it was time to write. Life was still incredibly challenging in a myriad of ways and I found time to be a huge issue, with scarcely enough for painting, but I managed to publish a post or two.
Now in 2015, I am trying to re-ignite my art career after other responsibilities have receded. My boys are out on their own for the most part, my Dad (for whom I provided care-giving and business management) has joined my Mom in a better place. I am looking to replace my gallery of 23 years which closed in December, update my website (a virtual ghost town), connect on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram, LinkedIn, keep up an Etsy store, blog, oh…and paint.
I had the amazing good fortune to attend the WordPress Press Publish event this weekend in Phoenix and I discovered, much to my dismay, that I am a Narcissistic Blogger. I listened to genuine and inspiring writers such as Russ Crandall, The Domestic Man and Katherine Fritz,
I have been blogging, but not reading posts or connecting with others, missing out on perhaps the greatest gift blogging has to offer, the chance to bond with a community of passionate, funny, intelligent, creative, inquisitive, and innovative beings.
My desire has been to share content that is beautiful, inspiring, provocative and brilliantly written, when in fact, my life is often ugly, messy and painful, and I feel discouraged, overwhelmed, creatively barren and inept. Gratefully, my eyes have been opened to the value of courageously sharing what is authentically true, and been made aware that my flaws, failures and stumbles can serve as gifts of connection and encouragement.
I realize now that there is more value in unmasking the Divine Imperfection shining and humming inside all of us constantly and consistently, rather than seeking to dazzle with the beauty that (I hope) I have created.
“Declaration”, shown above in black and white, will have color added to it and I will publish in a few days. In the meantime, I will be stepping up to the WordPress Banquet and serving myself a heaping portion.