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“Crown of Thorns”

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This is my first post since the death of my father March 7, 2014, and although I have had much to express, the intensity of the emotional chaos leaves me feeling less than coherent.  Fortunately, I can always rely on the mandala process to create a little stillness in the midst of the wildest storms.  The “major” mandalas show up with strong intention, concept first (“Transition Mandala” most recently) and the imagery comes to support the intention.  In contrast, the “minor” mandalas are simply freestyle, an 8″ X 8″ piece of watercolor paper and a circle, and whatever transpires inside is celebrated.

As this piece progressed, I “heard” the title (“Crown of Thorns”) and wondered about the relevance.  Continuing to paint, the awareness grew…with sufficient time (at least three days) and substantial elevation changes (higher perspective)…my pain transforms into gratitude, something of beauty that can be enjoyed.

The journey through the last four years, watching my charismatic, brilliant, powerful, kind and loving father disappear slowly into the abyss of dementia exhausted me energetically, emotionally and physically.  The last two weeks while he was on Hospice, I had to come to terms with the fact there was nothing else I could do for him.

Now he is free, with his God and my Mom, and my feelings about the experience begin to shift to thankfulness that I was able to spend this precious time with him and learn to love him in a new, and somehow deeper, way.  As I sort through what he left behind, I see his legacy is love, respect, generosity, discipline and humor, and I feel blessed all over again.

I’m glad “Crown of Thorns” could help me get my feelings expressed.

Filed under: Dementia Tolerance, Healing Art

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Current -"If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration", said Nikola Tesla. I am exploring this and employing it at the same time through art (painting with color frequency) and sound healing (I'm a certified Biofield Tuner). Combining the elements of sound and color have dramatically shifted life for the better, even during 2020. Past - Born in the desert, grew up painting even through education and career. Quit to pursue painting full time 30 years ago. Got married and divorced, single parented two boys and now delight in my grandbabies. Future - refining the frequency practices, innovating and creating, living more fully, sharing what I've learned to empower you in doing the same! " When the tide rises, it lifts all boats" John F. Kennedy

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