Is it possible to change the past? If you have had conversations with siblings and/or friends, and honestly relayed and listened to each other’s accounts of the same event, you know that what you remember may differ. Who is remembering correctly?
When this piece began I did not know what it would be about, but I felt compelled by this woman’s gaze…As the piece developed, I realized it was about changing the past. But Vikki, what does that mean? Surely the things that have happened to me and affected me deeply, they left a mark, especially the woundings. Yes…but here’s the thing, as life progresses, and perspective shifts, these events can come to be viewed in a different way.
I’m studying Biofield Tuning right now, a method which uses tuning forks in the energy field, to free up “tangles in the photons”, static left behind by traumatic events, so that the light that is contained within can be returned to the central energy channel, and put to use in more effective ways by the entire system, rather then creating reactive chaos in the energy field, leaving one vulnerable to triggers of past trauma and pain. The result is to begin integration of past experiences and find empowerment in all that has been lived.
There are several elements of the painting that move, intrigue and inspire me. What do you see in her eyes, is it fear, sadness or resolve? She is clearly from another time, but isn’t time just a construct? Who sits on her shoulder? I have always felt a responsibility to know the answers, and the discomfort that arises when I do not has challenged me again and again this year. A wise friend advised me to “respond to not knowing with curiosity instead of fear”.
It seems to be a time of not knowing for almost everyone. A time when we are being asked to “let go of what we know”, so that our experience and consciousness can expand. I don’t know about you, but for me, it can feel more terrifying than exhilarating.
May your past make sense to you in new ways that find you feeling blessed by all you have experienced…tragic, painful or joyful, and may your present find you curious and excited about what is and what is becoming.